The Hill

I’m in Alice Springs again, time out to write and look for family in the tangled recesses of the internet. House sitting and dog minding for friends of friends. It’s summer hot, and every morning we walk the hill. We – me and Jip – an aging blue heeler kelpie cross with a wicked sense of humour.

The hill is one of many stony outcrops on this eastern edge of town. Just one hill of many, crossed by multiple narrow tracks, many part of a ‘mountain’ bike network, graded and labelled with names and directional arrows. We walk the Eastside track and then branch onto the Inarlenge track, then scramble down through Henry’s ‘patch’ – one of several patches where a local is working to eradicate the invasive buffel grass – then along a sandy creek bed, passed Valmai’s ‘patch’ and then home.

It’s a crunchy, slippery walk. The rocks here dissolve into a quartz gravel that rolls under your boots. Jip skips down those bits, four legs make for greater stability than my two, while I creep, one foot, the next, stopping my slides on grassy clumps of buffel, the weed that dominates this landscape and, when alight, burns hot and dangerous.

The path is narrow, with dense buffel on either side, until we get to Henry’s patch. Not really a patch, more a small valley, enfolded between two high points. Henry has been weeding out the buffel for years here, digging it out, laying it flat, and then watching the landscape recover. No need to plant, the seeds of grasses, wattles, and more are there waiting. Here the path is edged with the tall stems of kangaroo grass, starting to form their distinctive ochre-coloured seed heads. It’s a joy to see them.

In the days before I arrived, warm wet air from the northern monsoon streamed across central Australia, dumping rain in Alice and across the Simpson desert, right through to northern Victoria. Rain, rain and more rain. Nourishing floods filling up the landscape with moisture, but hard for those who can’t move their homes out of the way. Our land tenure system fails when it floods, or burns. We are stuck in the way, evacuated out, but inevitably returning to that patch of ground called home, until the next time.

Arriving in Alice, there was water in the Todd River. A first for me after years of mainly winter visits. They say that January-February is when the Todd might flow, hooking into the monsoon, with water coming down at the hottest time of year.

Back to the buffel. Out in the Simpson earlier this year I learnt that it had been introduced for the pastoralists, one of the many ideas about how to improve the Australian landscape for farming. Buffel is a clumping grass, dense and domineering. It crowds out the native millet, toothbrush grass, feather grass and even the tall kangaroo grass. Where there is buffel there is little else.

Valmai is out tending her patch as we turn for home. She’s been out since first light. Her approach now is to spray the buffel, in part because weeding the big clumps out is getting too hard, and through observation she’s realized that the dead buffel holds the soil together, and then the ‘termites come to feast and after a couple of seasons only a skeleton remains. Her patch is measured in acres. It’s beautiful. A sandy creek beds weaves through, with tall grasses marking its course.  Her patch runs up and over a hill. Valmai points out the different grasses: several look to me like buffel – an oat grass I think she said. But her eyes are sharply attuned, and mid sentence she dives to pull out some young buffel plants, hanging them roots-up on a woody shrub – the Bradley method – or tossing them back onto the thick wall of buffel that marks the current edge of her patch.

Climb up onto the hill she suggests. Is there a path, I ask. You’ll find your way up, she says. The view is magnificent and you will see a lot from there.

Crossing Big River

The river has been waiting for us. Deep, cold, fast.
Walking for days across the high plains, we know it is there,
waiting.

On Day 6, we will cross. It’s become ‘the river’.
Name forgotten. An imagined place, a trepidatious crossing,
a moment planned for and worried at.

The night before, the conversation is all river.
‘Thongs? Will I be able to cross in thongs?’ Or
‘Will the rocks be slippery?’ Our guide shrugs a grin.
‘How high will the water be?’ We all wonder the same.

—-

I was born south of another river, the Yarra Yarra, ever running,
water over the falls, beautiful but the wrong name.
Birrarung.

My creek, my play place, was named for John Gardiner,
nicknamed ‘overlander’ for bringing the cattle over to eat out
someone else’s Country.

I live in dry, gold-bearing ancient country.

My river now is the Loddon; she shrinks every summer
to a chain of disconnected pools. This Big River is wide and deep.
A real river. Dangerous.

—–

All day we’ve walked down Track 107, cut by Angus McMillan, once
called ‘Discoverer of Gippsland’, but no longer. Murderer, thief, false claimant.

Follower, never discoverer.

Jaitamatang guides led McMillan through their mountains, along their
pathways, filling his belly with their water, all the while he named and claimed
their land as a Scottish domain.

We walk the murderer’s path, cut from the bush
by McMillan facing poverty, condemned to labour, a path
from Big River to high country gold.

—-

There is a Big River. There at the end of our days. They
say to cross it is to be judged. To cross is to go from living to dead.
Styx is that river.

Oceanus, serpent-like god of the river that encircles
the world connecting earth and heaven, married his sister Tethys,
goddess of fresh water.

Together they birthed 3000 children, creating gods and goddesses
for all rivers, seas and oceans, so fertile that their lust
threatened to flood the world.

Styx, their oldest daughter, incarnate of hatred
her river is deep and treacherous. A coin on my tongue will
secure that crossing.

—-

The Big River. It does have a kind of name, an almost name. Big.
It wriggles down Spion Kopje, circles east, then south, trying to find a way
through its brother mountains.

This is Jaitmathang country, these high plains and plunging slopes.
Did no one listen to this river’s name? Lost now, forever.
Now just ‘big’, named on a day short of names?

Downstream it’s the Mitta Mitta River, the mida-modoenga,
river of reeds, in Dhudhuroa country. A true name revealed and
retained.

Big River I name you garrgatba, for your coldness, or perhaps
wanbayinagadha, Jaitmathang whisper, we are travelling,
going up the river to feast and dance.

—-

The river arrives in front of us, appearing out of the scrub.
We are here, it is here.

Our ford is where Dead Horse Creek merges into the river.
Our pack horses have already crossed safely.
Not a warning after all.

Pant are unzipped into shorts, or stripped off, revealing an
array of coloured undies above shivery white flesh. Boots off and laced to packs. 
No thongs.

I’m in my trusty walking sandals: they’ve walked me for days in the desert
A steadying stick, a branch from one of the many fire-killed snow gums
from the landscape of destruction higher up the mountains.

I step into the coldness, the wetness of it. Rocks shift underfoot, the water
deepens towards the middle, the bottom disappears below turbulent riffles:
Holding my breath.

—-

Here where the waters convergence.

There is a tug, a deep call
Jaitmathang, am I arriving or leaving? Big River hold me close.